Friday, December 11, 2009

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, me again......(weird?) Off my usual soapbox...onto bigger and better things these days. I can finally comprehend the reasoning behind the saying "Everything happens for a reason". One day, you feel like you are riding the ferris wheel of self pity and loathing, the next day (or maybe 6 months later lol), you are riding the rollercoaster of which direction to go next and it feels great. Today, I am choosing to ride that rollercoaster. I'm not sure where I will go next, but I can tell you one very important fact. I am determined....more than ever. My closest friends can attest to the fact that over the recent months I've gone from the lowest of low to riding this spectacular "American Eagle" (rollercoaster for you non-lovers of Six Flags). Things are coming full circle and I am so motivated to chase things I've always wanted. So for those of you who have been supportive in one way or another, I love you for it and am thankful for the prayers. Sometimes I don't say it enough, but just know I know who you are even if we don't speak often. I know I have a hard time being "committal" when it comes to plans, but now that things are back in order, Stacy is back in action! :-)
I'm really excited for what 2010 will bring for myself, my family and my dearest friends. I wish you all happiness, love and fulfillment of your dreams. Merry Christmas and Happy 2010!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Talk Is Cheap

So I've had a lot of time to think I go again!!! There are many things over the last couple of years that I have just omitted from common conversation. If you are the person that only calls/texts me on the weekends, you aren't my friend. If you are the person that can't pick up the phone or return my texts, you aren't my friend. If you are a person that I can easily cross with no conscience, you aren't my friend and there are underlying reasons filled with hurt as to why I do it. If you are the person that constantly expects a one-sided friendship, you aren't my friend. And now I state the obvious, if you are THAT person that betrays me at my lowest point, guess what? That's right, you aren't my friend. I am clearing the slate people, so if you end up on the end that has been erased, I feel sorry for you. I am a good person. I am more than a friend of convenience. I am more than that fair weather friend. If you wanted to talk to me, you would. If you cared about my feelings and what was happening in my life, you'd pick up the phone once in a while. If you knew me at all, you would understand that things like this stew inside me to no end. If you knew me at all, you would be my friend. And with that I leave you all with this quote:
"So if I have to leave you, I want you to know that in the end, it wasn't because I stopped caring. It was because you stopped being a friend."